Feeling Fear

It’s been a minute, but I am back. 

Over the last two years, I have spent time working at a group practice and have decided to go out on my own. Beginning my own business in a market that is filled with many other talented providers is scary. Looking at my own journey and goals, I could have either stayed in a place that felt secure and comfortable or I had the opportunity to test my ability to push through my fears. With the support of my family and friends, I have decided to leap and try something new. My first instinct is to feel the fear, to lean into the worst possible outcome. I know that so many people do this as well. I can identify this as scary and recognize it feels really big. I also know that I am capable, brave, driven, and have a lot to give to my client’s. I can hold both as true. 

I am scared and I am excited. 

I feel like an imposter and I know that I am competent. 

I am learning new things and I already bring a lot to the table. 

Just as I teach and work with my clients, I am going to let this big wave of fear rush up. I cannot prevent these emotions from happening, but I can decide how I want to respond. I know that I want to respond in a way that does not put fear in the driver’s seat. I am going to let the wave crash and as I stand with my feet firmly in the sand, I will allow the fear to fall away. I am making way for excitement, new beginnings, for the opportunity to grow and stretch. I am taking my deep breaths and reminding myself of what I believe. “I am capable. I am brave. I can do hard things.” These mantras are not just statements that I tell myself for no good reason. These ground me in my core beliefs of how I see myself. I am supporting myself and being a good friend to myself. I am allowing myself to be in the driver’s seat and to take control of the story I want to write. 

There may be something in your life that is new or scary, and I am giving you the space to lean into it. To try something new and explore what this opportunity could look like for yourself. If you need to hear it today that you can feel scared and do it anyways, here it is. Go and do it. You are capable. Life is short and I am taking control of what I want it to look like and you can too. I encourage you to have people in your life that will build you up and support you in ways that maybe you can’t offer to yourself. We are not moving fear aside, but allowing ourselves to feel it and actively choose a response that is in pursuit of our goals and values. I believe in us.